more decision making. idk whether i should order pizza. im very hungry and not in the mood to make soup rn (from scratch!), also vv broke. generally my attitude is in the long run £15 is nothing . like in life. out of all of it. but this is why i am constantly giving in to my every whim and desire because money simply comes and goes and is and is not so i think. in the end. i willl order pizza.
jst rememebered the reasoning for my hesitation. its unusually busy today at the commune. i will have to walk past potentially several people including young men that make me uncomfortable, carrying my large pizza. this is not normal behaviour somewhere so rural and i do NOT wish for funny remark nor ANY comment nor ANY thought or perception regarding or perceiving my getting of a pizza.
never mind im fucking starving wheres all this fear and shame come from. thanks for letting me think this through here guys, appreciate it.
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hi this was 2 weeks ago and im just coming back to update that i had a frozen pizza that whole time i couldve just...
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