the problem with craving love is that if ur not in the right headspace it can be sooo entirely self-serving and egoic ….. sometimes i get frustrated thinking about the Injustice of having nobody to appreciate Me as if my life and traits is a spectacle to behold , simply because im desperate to be seen and told im special . and those thoughts come masked as craving ‘love’ or something but that couldnt be further from love. if i craved love surely i would crave to know and behold and adore someone else in their entirity instead of project it all on myself from their perspective and relish in that? maybe its because i have no face to put to the feeling i have to see it like that so in at least some way its real and not entire fantasy…………hm. food for thought. mostly i want to abandon this way of seeing love and extend it outwards. im incredibly bored of being selfish now but its a little bit of an awkward transition when its all youve ever known .

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